Wednesday, July 27, 2022

the Sun

July 27, 2022

Deck:  Secrets of the Rose tarot

First Impressions:  I love this card as it is so pretty and sunny.  It makes me happy just looking at it.  I have to be honest and say that the naked child image doesn't really do it for me.  That card is often incredibly creepy.

Book:  Happiness, gentility, joy, enlightenment, success, gratitude, creativity

Guidance:   Enjoy the warmth


Today at work some of my coworkers were talking about going on vacation to Europe and how they were looking forward to it.  It annoyed me, but not really for the reason that I thought I was initially annoyed.  Initially, I thought I was annoyed because they were doing something I could not do.  However, the reality is that that's not true.  I can afford to go to Europe if I want.  What bothers me is working so hard to go on vacation for two weeks, then coming back to work and dreaming of vacation.  I want a life where I am on vacation and enjoy what I do all year round.  I want life to be enjoyable and wonderful and relaxing all the time.  I don't want to keep going to a job that I hate just to pay for a little bit of leisure. 

The other piece that bothers me is that we are spending two days planning how to cut costs and part of that is headcount reduction, which means that the people planning their trips to Europe are planning to eliminate the jobs of people who can't go to Europe.  That really bothers me as the people who make our product are just making it.  I don't know what the solution is, because the truth of the matter I I also love my salary, but that just kind of struck me as wrong.

Where I'm At:  I was in the office today and it was a long day.  We were doing a day long ideation session and it was a lot of talking and brainstorming.  It was good, but I am utterly exhausted.

Weather:  It was rainy today

Moon Phase:  Waning Crescent 1%

Sunrise / Sunset:  6:14 / 8:50


June 12, 2022

Deck:  Intuitive Night Goddess Tarot

First Impressions:  Calm, light in the darkness, sunflowers

Book:  Being tall and strong, learn from your past

Guidance:   Feel the sun's energy and don't dampen your energy


The sun is an interesting card for me because the readings about the sun are usually about soaking up the sun and being energetic, but laying in the sun always makes me tired.  All I want to do is sleep after being in the sun.  I think it is because the sun is about receiving energy and about acceptance.  It is about being open to what is and about being open to receiving good things.

I don't think I've been very open lately as I close off good things and I get so set in my mind as to what I want and what should happen, that I don't let myself accept that there may be good things coming from unexpected directions.  I've already convinced myself that I don't want whatever this thing is that Brian is going to talk to me about, but maybe it would be a good thing.  Maybe I need to just need to open myself up.

Where I'm At:  I'm at home today and it is one of those lazy days where I'm just chilling out.  I actually lit a fire this morning because it was a little chilly, but it got warm later in the day

Weather:  It's nice and warm today.  It isn't ungodly hot, but it does feel good

Moon Phase:  Waxing Gibbous 94%

Sunrise / Sunset:  5:50 / 9:02


 April 14, 2022

Deck:  Tarot of Little Secrets

First Impressions:  This card has the same creepy little boy that the World Spirit Tarot is.  That card just makes me cringe.  However, I love the face on the sun and the warmth.  It made me feel happy to see this card.

Book:  Success, Joy, Happiness, Clarity, Openess

Guidance:  the cup runneth over in abundance and love


It's funny because my hackles are going up with the juxtaposition of success and happiness.  I have material success and make more than enough to pay my bills, but I'm miserable.  This job is the absolute worst for me because it feeds my worst characteristics.  It feeds my love of drama and gossip and that is not good for me.  I don't know how to survive without the gossip and backstabbing.  Maybe I need to ask the cards how I can live pure and still work at the Bird.

Where: I started my day in California and ended up at home.  I love California so much, but I love being home with my family and my puppies more.

Weather: It was cold and overcast when I left California today and it is clear tonight but still chilly.

Moon Phase:  Waxing, Gibbous, 93&

Sunrise / Sunset:  6:30 am / 7:38 PM (Modesto)


April 7, 2022

Deck:  Light Seer's Tarot

First Impressions:  Opening myself to receive, loving the sun, here comes the sun, happiness and joy

Book:  Inspirational success, positivity, exuberant creativity, inner beauty

Guidance:  Say yes to happiness


This card is about opening myself to joy and happiness and saying yes to all the good things that life has to open.  I know that there is a lot of darkness and evil in the world and that we can't ignore the bad stuff, but we can also open ourselves up to happiness and say yes to joy.  Say yes to being positive.  Say yes to love and joy.  I don't do such a good job of that as I often get sucked into negativity and sucked into all the bad stuff.  I spend too much time doom scrolling and too much time obsessing over things that I cannot change.  I cannot change what happens in Ukraine.  I cannot change drought.  I cannot change any of those things.  I can pray for the people impacted, but at the end of the day I cannot change it.

I need to let go of all the bad stuff and just say yes to happiness.

Where: I'm at home today and sitting in the living room with the doggos waiting for Sean to come home.  I feel like every entry I make I'm sitting with the dog

Weather:  It was a little chilly out today, but overall beautiful

Moon Phase:  Waxing Crescent, 34%

Sunrise / Sunset: 6:59 am / 7:58 pm


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