September 16
First Impressions: I love how the golden orbs are flowing down from the sun. They give the impression of movement and energy.
Book: See below
Guidance: See below
Journaling:
One of the key messages of this card is that clear communication is necessary. Right now, it feels like clear communication is impossible for me as my head is so fuzzy and all I want to do is lay down and sleep. Covid and my allergies are really kicking my butt. However, it could also be that the fuzziness is a message. A message to take care of myself and not overtax/ overstress myself. I have a tendency to overstress myself and I feel like this card is reminding me to take care of myself. To listen to the communications from my body.
Where I'm At: I is my last day in Erie for the week so I'm sitting in the hotel finishing up my work for the week and trying to feel human again. I feel like my face has been smashed in.
Weather: It looks cool out there and a little misty. I'm glad as I really don't like hot days.
Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous 63
Sunrise / Sunset: 7:06 / 7:35
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September 3, 2022
Deck: The Gentle Tarot
First Impressions: I love how the algae looks like rosemary and there is just enough orange in the drawing to let me know it is wands.
Book: I am receptive to active energies within and around me. I am ready for change.
Guidance: Clarity of Mind and Heart helps forward movement
Journaling:
The thing is that for someone who helps other people change, I'm not very receptive to change. I feel that I've finally got mostly comfortable at the bird and it is time to change. I know the players, I like a lot of people I work with, and things are good. However, when I really think about it, I know that things have not really been good since the Evil M joined the team. She is rude and dismissive and I just don't want to put up with her crap. I've never had a coworker treat me so poorly and I know that it was always going to be or her. However, the thing is that she's not going to leave. She's a colonizer so it was always going to be me that had to leave.
I'm tired of continually reinventing myself, but I also refuse to let people disrespect me.
Where I'm At: I'm home this morning with the doggos. Clark had an epic adventure last night. He walked all he way up the stairs to my room in the middle of the night and woke me up because he wanted to sleep with his mommy. I'm half asleep still because of it.
Weather: Is already warm outside even though it is only 10 am. It looks like it is going to be a scorcher.
Moon Phase: Waxing Crescent 36%
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:53 / 7:57
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August 14, 2022
Deck: Secrets of the Roe Tarot
Card Name: Eight of Batons
First Impressions: I love the jack rabbit as a symbol of speed. That's really unique and kind of cool
Book: Acceleration, swiftness, things gather pace, positive communication, increased momentum
Guidance: Things gathering momentum for positive change
Journaling:
It's interesting as it feels like good things really are coming my way and that I need to hang on and enjoy the ride. I know I'm going to get an offer tomorrow and I'm super excited as I'm ready to be done with Nestle. I want a remote job and don't want someone pressuring me, however subtly, to come back to work. I don't see any value in being in the office. I get more work done at home and I'm better able to focus on my responsibilities. I hate being in the office and being interrupted constantly. It is bad enough when people interrupt on Teams.
The other thing I think is that work gives you an illusion of friendship, but it isn't true friendship. It is a work friendship and when you leave the company, the friendship goes away. I'm ready to put my time and energy into real friendships and not work friendships.
Where I'm At: I'm home today. Having a lazy day with the dogs. Sean is off today, but he's feeling sick. I'm also feeling rotten and I checked myself for Covid, but I'm negative.
Weather: The weather was beautiful today. the high was only 74 so it was a nice day to sit outside and hang with the dogs.
Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous 92%
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:32 / 8:28
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July 10, 2022
Deck: Intuitive Night Goddess Tarot
First Impressions: Blazing across the universe. The Eight of Wands are coming in for a landing. I love the diamonds or whatever they are on them.
Book: Action, direction, swiftness, direction, movement
Guidance: Let yourself be carried by the flow and trust where it will lead
Journaling:
I am not very good at trusting the flow. I love to direct and guide and the thought of trusting the universe is not comfortable for me. However, I also know that when I let go and trust my instincts and the signs instead of overthinking things, things turn out well. The Nest has been a good place for me to shelter during the storm of Covid as I was safe from being laid off and I was paid well. However, as Covid wanes and life is changing, I'm getting shaken loose from being stuck against the moorings and it is time for me to be back out in the free flowing water.
I'm at the place right now where I am just putting it out there that I am ready for whatever is next. Maybe next is a new position at The Nest and maybe it is something else. We'll just see what happens as I try to let go and go with the flow.
Where I'm At: I'm enjoying a lazy day at home before I have to travel tomorrow. I have to get my laundry done and my bag packed so that I'm ready to go after my first meeting tomorrow.
Weather: It was actually a pretty nice day today as the weather stayed nice and the dogs and I spent some time chilling outside.
Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous 85
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:00 / 9:02
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January 16, 2022
Deck: Tarot of the Divine
First Impressions: Fireworks, fast moving, lighting up the sky
Book: Opportunities, new energies coming in and sparking rapid growth, pathways are opening
Guidance: Take risks and initiate activities
Journaling:
Wow! I love the reading on this card and the reminder that sometimes we have to take risks. One of the things I've realized is that I need to change my mindset and I've started asking myself, "What I would do if I didn't care..." Obviously, there are certain things I do care about, but there are a lot more where I'm really not invested in the outcome and I don't really care if I succeed or fail. This is a question I started asking myself when I was thinking about when I was contemplating applying for my master's degree. It had to be a program where I was true to myself and not something where I regurgitated answers based on what the teacher had fed us in lectures. It also had to be safe space where I was free to explore my own thoughts and beliefs.
When I decided to apply to WMU, I wrote the essay that said what was important to me. I didn't write an essay for the purpose of getting in. Cam ripped my essay apart and she was right to do so because it was mean and judgmental. I wrote a new essay where I laid my heart bare and she ripped that essay as well because it was too emotional. I sat on it for a few days and I decided that that was the essay I was going to go with because it was from my heart and it spoke my truth. I wasn't going to write a political essay for the sole purpose of being accepted. To Cam's surprise, but not mine, I was accepted with my essay.
Deciding that I don't care or that things don't matter frees me to be myself and to be my own person. And that is a wonderful thing that I've found has the unexpected, but delightful, effect of opening up pathways to me and leading me to the things that are right for me.
January 8, 2022 Revisit
Deck: Gaian Tarot
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