May 15, 2022
First Impressions: I don't like cards that are outside the structure of tarot. It just makes me feel uncomfortable as it feels like messing with something sacred. That being said, I actually really do like this card as it feels sacred. There is a Virgin of Guadalupe looking over the water fall and a there is a goddess under the waterfall. I also love how the trees are drawn.
Book: Divinity, nurturing, inspiration, community, cosmos
Guidance: You are never alone--Divinity is part of your pack at all times, and you can gather what you need
I needed this card today as I have been feeling so alone. I've felt like the Goddess has abandoned me and that I'm left in this hard and confusing world. I feel both personally abandoned and abandoned on a cosmic level as well. People are being shot in the grocery stores, in churches, and all of the violence in the world just feels like anger as at a level never seem before and I don't even hurt anymore. It is just so overwhelming and I feel so abandoned and as if nothing matters. I have to be honest and say that I feel dead inside because the world is falling apart. There were 10 people shot while grocery shopping and I feel shock and horror, but it feels hard to feel deep feelings because there has been so much pain and violence in the world lately.
It is also hard to feel a purpose when I feel that nothing I do matters and that I am just a wage slave. There is so much I want to do with my life, but I am trapped into a job that I hate and that I have to keep working to support everyone. I just feel overwhelmed.
However, I also know that doing some meditation work would help.
Where: I'm home and I spent the day getting ready for the window people. I got the living room and dining room cleaned and the kitchen mostly cleaned. It feels so good to have a clean house. The energy just felt as it kept getting lighter and lighter.
Weather: Today was a beautiful day. It was a little chilly, but overall nice
Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous, 99%
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:05 am / 8:39 pm