Sunday, February 27, 2022

Ace of Wands

February 27, 2022

Deck:  Light Seer's Tarot

First Impressions:  Meditation, creativity, third eye, flames

Book:  New ideas, arrival of inspiration, interconnectedness, manifestation

Guidance:   Open your heart to new beginnings

Journaling:

I love this card and the thought of opening myself to new beginnings.  I've been super depressed lately and bogged down with all the ickiness in the world, but I think it is time to let go of all of that and focus on the good that is in the world and what I can do to create a life that I love.  One big step that I have taken lately is to stop going out to stores as much.  During the pandemic, I wanted to go out because I felt trapped, but now that the world is opening back up, it is so much easier to just say no.  I don't need anything and the more stuff I surround myself with, the harder it is to be creative because there is no space to create.  

When I think about how life should be simple and should just come down to the basics, it reminds me that the more clutter there is in my head and in my house, the harder it is to be creative.  I need to work to open up room to create.  I think that is going to be my focus for the next little while, opening up space to create.

Where I'm At:  It is a clear and beautiful Sunday morning out and I'm sitting on the couch hanging out with the doggos.  Clark is snuggled under the sleeping bag and Wendy is on the orange chair.  It feels peaceful today despite all the crap that is going on in the world.

Weather:  It is clear and a little warmer today as it is 35 degrees

Moon Phase:  Waning Crescent 13%

Sunrise / Sunset: 7:04 am / 6:15 pm

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January 31, 2022


Deck:  
Tarot of the Divine

First Impressions:  Passionate, creative, entering the creative zone

Book:  Excitement, creativity, a spark, new beginnings

Guidance:  Take advantage of the spark of creativity

Where I'm At:  I'm home and I am so flipping sick of the snow.  There is over a foot outside and we are supposed to get 14 inches later this week.  It seems as if it will never go away.  However, now that I've gotten that gripe out of the way, I am sitting in my cozy living room and the warm sun is warming my shoulders.  the sun also makes it look extra light outside as the sun reflects off of it.  

Mood:  I'm actually in a good mood as I'm digging out from the pile of work I'm under.  Today is kind of a slow day and I have a two hour meeting where I will be able to just listen and work on other tasks.  The Tarot Conference is also coming up on Saturday so I'm excited about that.  I also finished my homework and submitted it on time for my classes.

Weather:  It is 30 degrees and clear out and the sun is streaming through the window.

Moon Phase:  Waning Crescent

Sunrise/Sunset  7:39 am / 5:40 pm

Journaling
I needed a reminder about creativity today and about finding that spark of inspiration.  I've been feeling so down and depressed lately with the snow, COVID, being trapped in the house and all the rest.  It feels like all of my energy goes to "practical" things, but I'm realizing that I need to make time to be creative.  I need to make time to paint (even if I do it badly), to write, to take photos of the snow, and to let creativity flow though me.  

I also need to remind myself that work is not creative.  Even though I may be playing with PowerPoint and putting my thoughts on paper, that is not true creativity.  That is enslaved creativity.  True creativity is when I do something for the pure joy of creating.  Crocheting counts as creativity, painting counts as creativity, writing for fun counts as creativity.  I may need to go back to scheduling artist's dates to be creative.

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August 28, 2019

Deck:  Tarot de St. Croix

First Impressions:  Lighting the way, light in the darkness

Book: Brilliant sunrise, life, creative passion

Guidance:  Take action and follow your bliss

Journaling:

For me, the Ace of Wands is that divine spark of inspiration, that magical moment when an amazing thought comes to you out of nowhere and it creates magic.  It is the first time that humans realized they could make a torch by lighting fire from a lightening strike and there was portable light.  It's Ben Franklin discovering electricity.  It's all those times when an amazing thought come to people and they acted upon it to make reality. 

One of the things we all need to learn about that divine spark is that we need to nurture it, protect it and help it grow beyond the little flame at the end of a stick.  We need to work with others to help it grow and become something real.  Sometimes I think there is a potential to want to protect our little spark baby too much and not share it. When that happens, the spark might end up dying and not coming into fruition.  However, having too many people or the wrong people involved in nurturing  the spark can also be a bad thing as that can mean that the little spark gets smothered or that people with no creativity may put the spark out because they don't believe in it.  I know there have been times in my life when the little spark was doused because someone (usually John or Charlene) doused it and made me feel as if my dreams didn't matter or like they were unattainable. 

One of the best things about living the life I live now is that I own my dreams and I am responsible for whether or not they come true.  Additionally, I get to choose the people that I have in my life which means that I only choose people who nurture and support my dreams and don't bring people into my life who are going to smash my dreams.  And if they do attempt to smash my dreams, they get kicked out of my life.

Gratitudes

I'm grateful that the presentations went well
I'm grateful for the opportunity to talk to John
I'm grateful for the safe drive home
I'm grateful for the opportunity to connect school and home
I'm grateful for getting to talk to my colleagues in person
I'm grateful the org impact session went well

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July 31, 2019

Deck:  World Spirit Tarot

Journaling

This card feels like a beacon telling me that my creativity does have value and that I need to nurture it and see where it will take me.  I've been working on more creative things lately like my tarot of change book, poetry, blogging, etc.  The problem is that I just feel so weak and tired all the time and have absolutely no energy.  Hopefully, the detox we are doing will help address that issue and I will start feeling better.

Inspiration for me can come from so many places as I get inspired by nature, I get inspired by learning new things, and I get inspired by thinking of all the good stuff that the world has to offer.  For me all of those things are tied together and when I am in a good space and have energy, I let my creativity roam and life is very good.

The Ace of Wands can also be about letting the fire burn and burn away that which no longer serves me.  It can be about choosing to let go of anger and pain and all that is holding me back.

Gratitudes
I'm grateful for the yummy detox soup
I'm grateful for John's help
I'm grateful for snuggling with Wendy
I'm grateful for getting paid
I'm grateful for being able to pay my bills

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June 1, 2019

Deck:  World Spirit Tarot

Journaling

I love this card because it feels like the fire in my soul is being lit by all the fires of the universe.  For me it is a reminder to take inspiration from wherever I can find it.  Some days that inspiration will come from within my soul and other days it will come from those around me.  As I think about that spark of inspiration, I'm reminded of the importance of being vulnerable and being open to sharing with others.  When we are open with others and admit our weaknesses and strengths, we can feed off of one another and propel ourselves to greater things that any of us could become alone.

One of the things that I've found to be true in life is that drama really kills the creative spirit because it takes all of the inspiration and instead of feeding creativity, it feeds the drama and that is all that everyone thinks about and notices.  I've been working so hard lately to live a drama free life and to not let myself get all caught up in who said what and about who thinks what.  I used to be such a drama llama and I'm realizing that it was because I thought I was nothing unless everyone was noticing me so I would create or embrace drama because I got validation and people were paying attention to me.  However, since I've let go of the need to be the center of attention, my life is so much more peaceful.

Letting go of drama has also helped me to find time to be creative and to learn more about myself and the more I let go of the drama, the more time and energy that I have to feed my soul and to feed my creativity.  I have to really honest and say that John fed my drama queen attitudes because it was difficult to get attention from him unless we were fighting.  Drama became an addiction and when there was no drama, life felt drab and meaningless.  I've learned since that life without drama is really good because it lets me relax and have peace in my soul.

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