Wednesday, July 3, 2019

Deliberate Draw: Seer of Wands

First Impressions:  Bold, doing what needs to be done

Book:  Restless spirit of adolescence, ready for a change and a new challenge, frank, being daring to the point of being dangerous

Guidance: Encourage enthusiasm, nurture your own adventurous spirit


One of the things I've learned as I've gotten older is that there is a tendency to play it safe as we get older.  We have so much to lose.  We can't just quit our jobs and go off and do what our heart is telling us to do because we'll lose our status, we'll lose the time we've invested, we'll lose all of that.  It is so much harder to be bold when you have things that you will have to leave behind.  I believe it is easier to take chances and be bold when you aren't afraid of losing all that you've worked for.  What I've been working to do is figure out how to be cautiously bold, how to move forward with the things that make me happy, while being smart about my security.  It isn't easy because my heart wants to just say F* it all, quit my job, and go back to school full time.  However, as I've matured over the years I've realized that my brain gets a vote too and my vote says we need to be secure, need to pay off the bills, etc. ,etc.

In the past, I would have said F* security, I just want to be happy.  However, I've realized that I can be secure an be happy and that moving forward with my dreams doesn't mean leaping without a net.  It may take longer to get where I want to be while working, but I will get there.  Additionally, in some ways having a full time job will pursing my dreams actually helps me pursue them because all those free hotel rooms and airline points mean that I can go to conferences that I couldn't afford if I didn't have a full time job.  When I let go of my impatience and accept that I can't have everything I want right now, I can embrace taking the slow road.  I can embrace following my dreams while still living a secure life.

I love this card because she ventures boldly out into the world without a lot of baggage, but I'm realizing that sometimes we need our baggage.  Sometimes we need our ties to other people and our past.

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