July 2, 2019
Book: Fortune is smiling on you
Guidance: Visualize your desires and intentions
Journaling
I love this card for it says to me to be grateful and happy for what you have. This card is about like attracting like and I have learned that the more grateful I have for what I am, the more good stuff will come into my life. I've also learned that I need to be happy right now and not be happy when X happens. If I wait for something external to bring me happiness, I might not every be happy because the external thing I'm waiting for may never happen. However, if I choose to be happy right now in my messy house, with my less than perfect dogs and kids, with a job that I sometimes like and sometimes hate, I will bring more happiness into my life.
I always thought that people who said happiness was a mindset were crazy because how could they be happy when bad things were happening, but I've learned that 90 percent of the time we can choose to be happy. We can choose to clean up the dog poop and be happy the dog loves us so much (here's looking at you Wendy!), we can choose to wash the dishes and be grateful we have food to eat, we can choose to do the boring work and be thankful that we have a job. And if we can see the blessing in everything, more blessings will come into our lives.
The other piece of this is that if we aren't willing to do the work to change things, we don't get to complain about them. If work isn't going so well, but we aren't willing to find a new job or change our attitude, then we don't get to complain. All complaining does is remind us of the bad things in our life and draw more bad stuff into our life. However, when we remind ourselves of how blessed we are, we become more blessed.
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March 22, 2018
Deck; RWS
Book: Card of fulfilled wishes, things are yours for the taking
Guidance: All that you want is yours
Journaling
I don't like this card as it always makes me think of loneliness. feel as if the person in the card is opening his heart and no one is saying yes. Or maybe, that is just how I see the card because I feel as if I am opening myself to love and no one is coming or responding.
When he did my soul retrieval, Keven picked up doubt trailing me around and I guess it's true. I have a lot of doubt about how my life is going to turn out and whether I will ever have love. It feels as if I never will and as if I will be alone forever. I honestly don't know what I am supposed to do.
Dearest Ones,
Please help me a guide me toward the love of my life. Please help me find the one that is right for me.
Blessings,
Raine
December 25, 2018
It's interesting that I wrote this just nine months ago, but I feel as if I have been transformed. I've realized that the very act of opening our hearts and welcoming people in is an act of love and kindness. I think the problem is that I have such a binary mind (if I do this, then this has to happen), but the world is way more than binary. I'm realizing that the act of opening my heart and loving is enough. The world is not a quid pro quo world and that opening my heart is enough.
I'm realizing that I need to live my life more like Clark and Wendy and less like Luke. Luke was always hesitant and afraid that we didn't love him, even after he had been part of our life for 10 years. Clark and Wendy, on the other hand, know that they are worthy of love despite the fact that before they came into our lives there was not much evidence of it. They love with open hearts and that is the way I need to live my life. I need to live my heart knowing that I am worthy of love and that if someone does not love me, that is on them and not on me.
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November 14, 2017
Deck: Gilded Tarot
First Impressions: Friendship
Book: Saluting comfort, abundance, and good fortune, fortune that is of good cheer, you have achieved a place of comfortable abundance
Guidance: Be aware of the energy of the hermit to the extreme, share what you have with graciousness
Journaling
Interesting read on this card. I love the reminder to not be the hermit as that is my preference. I love to hide away and have my alone time. I recharge when I am alone. I need to find my balance between alone time and not shutting people out. I don't know yet where that balance is. Part of it is that I have to be so on at work that being on at home is a daunting thought. My daughter calls it emotional labor and she's right. I also know that in some ways it is harder than psychical labor.
November 20, 2017
I really need to work to cultivate balance in my life. It is way too easy for me to stay in my little hermit mode and stay isolated. I need to work harder to get out of myself as it is way too easy to stay in my little hermit shell and stay isolated. However, the flip side is do I need to meet people, is there anything wrong with being solitary?
October 30, 2018
I think I'm doing much better at this because I am finally at a place where I've realized that it is okay to be a hermit and it is okay to be myself. There is nothing shameful about not wanting to be around people 24/7. John ridiculed me and made fun of me if I did not want to constantly be around people. I think he uses people to hide from himself whereas I used to using my alone time to hide from people. I think I'm finally at a point where I am finding balance.
It really helps knowing that how much or how little I socialize is purely my choice and is not anyone else's. That helps me to feel a lot better and it honestly makes it easier to socialize with others. I also am realizing that I do need people in my life, but I need to control the dosage and the method of delivery. I want to have people I can talk to about real issues and not just have a group of people who are drinking buddies. I think I'm starting to make progress on this front. It's hard, but I'm getting there.
Book: Saluting comfort, abundance, and good fortune, fortune that is of good cheer, you have achieved a place of comfortable abundance
Guidance: Be aware of the energy of the hermit to the extreme, share what you have with graciousness
Journaling
Interesting read on this card. I love the reminder to not be the hermit as that is my preference. I love to hide away and have my alone time. I recharge when I am alone. I need to find my balance between alone time and not shutting people out. I don't know yet where that balance is. Part of it is that I have to be so on at work that being on at home is a daunting thought. My daughter calls it emotional labor and she's right. I also know that in some ways it is harder than psychical labor.
November 20, 2017
I really need to work to cultivate balance in my life. It is way too easy for me to stay in my little hermit mode and stay isolated. I need to work harder to get out of myself as it is way too easy to stay in my little hermit shell and stay isolated. However, the flip side is do I need to meet people, is there anything wrong with being solitary?
October 30, 2018
I think I'm doing much better at this because I am finally at a place where I've realized that it is okay to be a hermit and it is okay to be myself. There is nothing shameful about not wanting to be around people 24/7. John ridiculed me and made fun of me if I did not want to constantly be around people. I think he uses people to hide from himself whereas I used to using my alone time to hide from people. I think I'm finally at a point where I am finding balance.
It really helps knowing that how much or how little I socialize is purely my choice and is not anyone else's. That helps me to feel a lot better and it honestly makes it easier to socialize with others. I also am realizing that I do need people in my life, but I need to control the dosage and the method of delivery. I want to have people I can talk to about real issues and not just have a group of people who are drinking buddies. I think I'm starting to make progress on this front. It's hard, but I'm getting there.
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September 29, 2016
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| Nine of Cups Hanson-Roberts |
First Impressions: This card shows a bartender all ready for guests, but there is no one there to drink with him. He looks happy and welcoming. He also has a peacock feather in his vest, which is interesting as peacock feathers are symbols of good luck in the east and bad luck in the west. The nine of cups always strikes me as a card of friendship and good times.
Book: Realizing a long held dream, period of emotional contentment. It's possible someone may be missing from your life.
Guidance: Appreciate what you have
Journaling:
The words that struck me as I read this is that there is probably someone missing from your life. This last week has really been about missing my mom, but I don't know how to reconnect. The rules I choose to live by (treating people with respect, setting boundaries, and not giving unsolicited advice) are ones that make sense to me and I surround myself with people who treat me like I want to be treated. I have no clue how to set boundaries with her because she won't respect them. She will be hurt and see boundaries as a rejection. Maybe I just need to think it over and then be willing to listen.
December 23, 2017
It really hurt to read what I wrote over a year ago and realize that I'm still feeling like an orphan and motherless. It hurts to not have someone who loves me unconditionally and who will listen to me when I cry and support me. I never have had that in my life as my entire childhood growing up I always had to be careful what I said so I didn't set her off. I could never be honest about what was going on in my life because I would either be judged or get a lecture. There is no one from my childhood who could just flipping listen and support without being judgemental.
What especially ticked me off is how people would give advice even when I didn't ask for it. My Uncle Gene had to advise me how to spend my money and that flying lessons were a waste even though I didn't ask for his advice. And the first thing my mother said when she walked in to my new house was, "Why'd you put that picture there? I would have put it there." How flipping rude and insulting is that? The house was clean and looked really nice, but she had to find fault. I can't do that any more in my life.
It is one thing if someone is endangering themselves or others, but if they are making judgments that are different than mine, it is not my place to give advice. And I would never walk in to someone's house and critique their decorating. That is just rude.
Book: Realizing a long held dream, period of emotional contentment. It's possible someone may be missing from your life.
Guidance: Appreciate what you have
Journaling:
The words that struck me as I read this is that there is probably someone missing from your life. This last week has really been about missing my mom, but I don't know how to reconnect. The rules I choose to live by (treating people with respect, setting boundaries, and not giving unsolicited advice) are ones that make sense to me and I surround myself with people who treat me like I want to be treated. I have no clue how to set boundaries with her because she won't respect them. She will be hurt and see boundaries as a rejection. Maybe I just need to think it over and then be willing to listen.
December 23, 2017
It really hurt to read what I wrote over a year ago and realize that I'm still feeling like an orphan and motherless. It hurts to not have someone who loves me unconditionally and who will listen to me when I cry and support me. I never have had that in my life as my entire childhood growing up I always had to be careful what I said so I didn't set her off. I could never be honest about what was going on in my life because I would either be judged or get a lecture. There is no one from my childhood who could just flipping listen and support without being judgemental.
What especially ticked me off is how people would give advice even when I didn't ask for it. My Uncle Gene had to advise me how to spend my money and that flying lessons were a waste even though I didn't ask for his advice. And the first thing my mother said when she walked in to my new house was, "Why'd you put that picture there? I would have put it there." How flipping rude and insulting is that? The house was clean and looked really nice, but she had to find fault. I can't do that any more in my life.
It is one thing if someone is endangering themselves or others, but if they are making judgments that are different than mine, it is not my place to give advice. And I would never walk in to someone's house and critique their decorating. That is just rude.
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September 15, 2016
Deck: Hanson Roberts
Initial Impressions: Interesting card. I like how it shows the main full face right up in the camera. I find the peacock feather interesting as that is a symbol of luck and hospitality in eastern cultures. My initial impressions of this card are of happiness and welcoming. It also speaks to friendship and collaboration.
Book: Realization o a dream. Imaginative and creative life. Flourishing.
Guidance: Count your blessings. Appreciate what you have.
December 22, 2018
Oddly enough, I didn't journal on this card either. I must have been uber busy at the time I was pulling these cards. I like the reminder to count my blessings. I have been working really hard to focus on the positive lately and not get bogged down in the negative. Right now, I'm a little pissed off that we have a defect heading into the holidays and we're expected to work while on PTO to resolve it. I understand that that is the nature of the beast, but it doesn't mean that I have to like it.
Book: Realization o a dream. Imaginative and creative life. Flourishing.
Guidance: Count your blessings. Appreciate what you have.
December 22, 2018
Oddly enough, I didn't journal on this card either. I must have been uber busy at the time I was pulling these cards. I like the reminder to count my blessings. I have been working really hard to focus on the positive lately and not get bogged down in the negative. Right now, I'm a little pissed off that we have a defect heading into the holidays and we're expected to work while on PTO to resolve it. I understand that that is the nature of the beast, but it doesn't mean that I have to like it.
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