Warrior Ten tells me that I cannot carry the entire weight of a relationship on my own shoulders. There is a give and take. I need to let go of my need to "buy affection" or to do more of my fair share of the work so that people will like me. I need to hold people accountable in both work and personal settings. That's hard for me to do because I am a people pleaser, but other people have to own their actions and have to own their responsibilities in friendships, in family relationships, and in other relationships. Part of this is choosing to value myself and choosing to say that if I value myself, I cam not going to carry the burden of always being the one to contact people. If someone values me and considers me their friend, they need to share the burden of connecting. If someone does not share the burden of connecting, that tells me that I am a friend of convenience and that I don't really matter to the other person. And that includes X! He never reaches out and I'm tired of being the one to maintain our friendship.
Dancer Four tells me that it is not all about me. I need to get out of my own head and look around me and start forming relationships with people around me. I do spend a lot of time living in my head, not from a vanity perspective, but from a perspective of being wrapped up in my own world and tuning out what is going on around me. Cam calls me on that all the time because I am just so wrapped up in my own things that I just don't pay attention.
The Maker card reiterates what Warrior Ten tells me, I cannot be all things to all people in a relationship. I have to be comfortable being my own shining star and letting other people be their own shining stars. I also cannot be all things to all people and I have to accept that. People who want to use me should not be in my life. I also have to do a better job of drawing boundaries around time with my family, especially C's demands.
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