Sunday, July 3, 2022

July Word of the Month(Beginning): Peace

 To help my personal growth, I've decided that not only will I have a card of the year, I will also choose a word each month to study and reflect on.  I'll be reading books and articles on my word of the month as well as figuring out activities that will help me incorporate that word into my life.  My word of the month for July is:


At the beginning and end of each month, I will also do a reading.  The beginning of the month reading will be about what lessons I can learn from the card and the end of month reading will be about what I did learn.  

Beginning of the Month Reading

Deck:  Sacred Rose Tarot

What does peace mean for me right now?
Right now, I view peace as being external and not internal and that is what the Emperor is picking up.  When I think of peace, the term "keep the peace" comes to mind as meaning someone has to be a go-between between opposing forces for their to be peace.  I think about the situation in Ukraine, I think about the situation with protestors, I think about all of the situations where opposing forces are battling it out.  

When I look at the Emperor, I think of very heavy male energy as there is an external force that has to keep the peace because people are not capable of living in peace unless it is forced upon them.  In reality, this is a very patriarchy-ish way of thinking as matriarchal societies lived in peace with everyone being cared for and people not needing to fight for resources. 

This way of thinking about peace has a lot to do with poverty consciousness as when we believe that there is not enough, we get defensive, protect what we have and do not share with others.  However, when we believe in abundance, we are more likely to be peaceful.  We don't believe that everyone else is the enemy because we believe there is naturally enough for everyone.

What do I need to learn about peace?

On the surface, the two of wands is not very peaceful as we have two people holding staffs facing each other.  Additionally, the predominant color on this card is red which in my mind signifies anger and bitterness.  This card reinforces the meaning of the card above that peace is only to be had by force.  This card makes me think of the Cold War, where the only reason it was cold is because neither side wanted to destroy the other.

When I close my eyes and ask what this card is teaching me, the message I get is that peace is not the opposite of war.  True peace does not happen because people are afraid of one another.  True peace occurs when people are comfortable in their own skin and our at peace with themselves.  Being at peace with ourselves, means that we can be at peace with others because do not feel the need to be angry and strike out.

What do I need to do to bring peace into my life?

I need to let go of all my imaginative worst case scenarios.  I need to let go of thinking that if someone is good at something, I am not good at anything.  I need to stop catastrophizing and thinking of the absolute worst case scenario.  I am really bad at convincing myself that I am one step away from being homeless and on the streets with Wendy having to go back to the shelter because I can't take care of her.  I need to accept that I have a good life and that there are no real indications that this good life is going to end any time soon.  Although I have been poor before, I have always figured out a way to make ends meet and take care of myself.  And there are no indications that will change.  Additionally, the kids and are are good at taking care of each other, so why should I expect that they would let me down in the future.

What benefits will I have bringing peace into my life?

The five of swords is definately a strange card to pull here as it is about anger, sadness, loss and having a falling out.  However, there is a raw honesty in this card as the man is putting his pain out there for all to see.  He isn't hiding from his own misery and in reality he is in too much pain to put up his shields.  He is sad, lonely, and enduring his pain alone.  I remember feeling this way right after my divorce when I was so traumatized and in so much pain.  There was no energy to put up my shields.  Like the man in the image, I was humbled and to a certain extent humiliated, but I felt free of all the pretense.  All the anger and pain I had endured in my marriage was gone as couldn't pretend everything was all right anymore.

There is a certain beauty in brutal honesty, in no longer maintaining a façade and pretending life is good when it clearly isn't.  And yes, there is peace in that place of that place of honesty.

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