Tuesday, January 11, 2022

2022 Spread

 I like the new year and the sense of possibilities it brings as afterall NOTHING could be worse than the dumpster fires the last couple of years have been.  I am hoping, along with the rest of the world, that 2022 brings happiness, peace, and most of all health.  This spread, from Joanna Powell Colbert, is one of my favorites.  

What do I leave behind in the old year?
The Star tells me that I am leaving hope and optimism behind and unfortunately there is a lot of truth in that.  I have always been someone who believes the best about people, but the last few years have brought out the ugliness in people and it has become very clear that there are some people who cannot be reasoned with and who do not understand science or the truth at all.  This card is about accepting reality and realizing that hope alone cannot change the world.  It also means that I have to be a little self-absorbed and take care of me and mine.  

One of the things that I have learned over the last few years is that hope can be a bad thing if it is blind hope.  Sometimes we want things to be true so much that we are not realistic.  

What do I open up in the New Year?
The hanged man is about looking at things from a different perspective.  It is also about being patient and taking time to let things play out to their conclusion.  Sleeping beauty also tells me that there will be restriction, but eventually there will be improvement.  That is an interesting read for a year that is starting out under restrictions and horrible covid numbers.  Every day the news is filled with higher and higher numbers.  The major hospitals in Cleveland joined together to take out an ad asking people for help.  

In addition to the more global restrictions, I believe there will be personal restrictions as well as I can't look for a new job until I am vested in my 401K so I have to do the best I can in the job I am in.  A big part of that means rising about the fray and not letting Y get in my face.  She is an idiot and while she is doing anything she can to impress the boss, she doesn't realize that throwing people under the bus and acting like she is our boss is not the right way to do it.  I think the message for me on this front is to restrict myself and not take off the gloves.  I can acknowledge that she is an idiot and not confront her.

Key opportunity of the new year?
the two of wands is an interesting card in this position because Janus is about business opportunities, travel, and opportunities.  When I reflect upon this card, I believe I am being asked to both look forward and backward for opportunities.  What are the lessons from the past that can become opportunities in the future?  The myth of Janus tells me that he is the protector of beginnings.  I interpret this to mean that he helps incubate possibilities and fresh starts.  He protects little seedlings until they are ready to stand on their own.    

Key challenge of the new year
My challenge this year will be finding balance and multitasking.  Going to school and working is hard and it would be so easy to quit school and just work, but school is fun and intriguing and even though there are times when I feel like I am so in over my head, I get a sense of joy out of school and a sense of accomplishment.  It also keeps my brain exercised.  The other message from this card, at least for me, is that I don't have to be superhuman.  It is okay if I only take two classes instead of three.  

I pulled the ten of wands this morning and that message is all about asking for help and delegating.  I'm in a position right now where I have to let go of some of the hands on tasks that I do and delegate.  Interestingly, I pulled the two of coins as the theme in the 2022 Year that Will be Spread from Tarot Awakenings that I did last week.  Pulling the same card twice tells me that this will be a theme and a challenge for this year.

Hidden concern of the new year
The six of cups is a card that I struggle with as it many versions trigger memories of childhood abuse.  Pulling this card in this position makes me wonder if I will need to come face to face with issues form my childhood this year.  Maybe there will be something happen with my mother and I will need to deal with her.  However, I will choose to take this card as a warning, but I won't obsess over it.  I will keep an open heart and an open mind and I will deal with whatever comes my way.

Deep wisdom / advice from the goddess
I love this card!  Beaivi-Nieida, the Page of Cups, is all about fresh starts, manifesting goals, and opportunities.  She tells me to keep my sights set on the future and to keep taking steps toward what I want.  She is the warm summer sun returning after the long winter.  However, the cautionary side of this story is to accept everyone as they come and to know that I have skills and talents too.  There is no need to be jealous of others as I am an amazing person in my own right.

This is a pretty interesting card and the legend of Beavia-Nieida is one that reminds me that jealousy can be so destructive.  It makes me ponder why Y upsets me so much.  On the surface, I feel that she is my competition and I don't like someone being my competition because I have to be the best.  However, when I look deeper, I don't think that is the case.  C is an amazing project manager and she brings so much knowledge to her position.  In reality, if I should be jealous of anyone it would be her, but I'm not.  I think it is because of her attitude and the fact that she works to partner with people.  That is completely different than Y who believes she is only recognized if she is putting others down.  Maybe the truth of the matter is that she views me as competition and that's why she tries to shut me down.

Key theme of the year
My first impression on seeing death as the them of the year is NO FUCKING WAY!  The last two years have been miserable and have been filled with death and destruction.  However, death is an equalizer and death is the clearing away of old beliefs.  One of the key statements in this is that the loss of childhood is necessary in order to grow up.  That is so true and there are things in my life that I need to let go of in order to grow.

One of the truest things that J. every said to me was that our marriage was dead and could not be saved.  Although I did not want to accept it, accepting that was what I had to do in order to move on.  

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