Friday, January 28, 2022

The Sun

January 28, 2022


Deck: 
Tarot of the Divine

First Impressions: Proud, warmth, crossing the river, master of all surveyed

Book:  Satisfaction, accomplishment, joy, luck, and vitality

Guidance:  Everything is illuminated with joy and optimism

Where I'm at:  I'm at the Berkeley, CA Marina and the weather is amazing or at least it feels like it for me.  It is about 48 degrees and I'm wearing a sleeveless top while everyone around me is bundled up.  I had a great afternoon as I wandered around the area and stopped at two pagan stores.  It was a very lazy and relaxed afternoon.  I got to my hotel about sunset and got checked in.  I headed over to the hotel restaurant and sat outside and enjoyed the lights twinkling off the bay.  everyone around me was bundled up, but I was enjoying what is for me warm weather.

Mood:  I'm feeling relaxed.  It was a really good week and I got a lot accomplished and I'm in an amazingly beautiful place.

Weather:  Warm, for me, as it is about 48 degrees.  It's evening and clear out as I write this and although I can't see a lot of stars, I can see a few.

Journaling

This card was prophetic today because it was a super good day.  We are on track with Intelex and had a great discussion about the philosophy of problem solving.  We reached agreement that we will use both Intelex and GSTD and will have a matrix for when to use each.  Additionally, KG had very complementary things to say about me.  She told me that she had good things from the factories that she worked with.

I think a lot of it is that I am feeling more open and less competitive.  I'm figuring out that life is not a big competition and that I don't have to win every time.  To be fair T and M have taught me that as they have to dominate and they have no clue how to compromise and not be dogmatic.  It is a really good position to be in and I'm feeling good about life.  Not so good about going home to the snow and leaving this beautiful weather, but I am going to be happy to be going home.





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August 30, 2019

Deck:  Tarot de St. Croix

First Impressions:  Open to Receive, Harvest

Book:  Card of joyful empowerment,

Guidance:  Be the best we can be and share that with others

Journaling:

The sun called to me as it was one of those beautiful early autumn days out where the sun is still warm, but the trees are starting to turn and there is that faint hint of fall in the air.  As usual, Wendy wanted to spend time outside soaking up the sun so I sat outside with her for a while and it was so peaceful and wonderful to just sit and receive the sun.  One of the things I have realized over the past year or so is that Deity's love is just like the love of the sun, I don't have to do anything to be worthy of the sun's love and warmth, I just have to be willing to receive it.  I've always struggled with feeling worthy as I've had a lot of shame around who I am, but sitting outside in the sun is a good reminder that I am perfect and wonderful just the way I am.  All I have to do to receive love is to be open to it.

Sitting in in the sun did help me open up and be willing to receive because after I sat in the sun, I
came inside and was holding some of my rocks and I could feel their energy so clearly.  I always thought that when I quit being able to feel rocks that they had lost their faith, but I'm realizing that it was me being cluttered and not being open to receive.  Being open to receive is one of the simplest things imaginable as it just involves letting down my guard and letting people in, but it is also one of the hardest because I always operate from such a position of fear.

Having my girl Wendy in my life is such a game changer for me because she reminds me a lot of myself as she is slow to walk up stairs, she's kind of grumpy, and she snores like a freight train.  But despite all of that, we love her so much and having her serves as a good reminder that I am loved and I am lovable no matter what.

Today was one of those days where I felt like I was my best self as I was able to get through my work, keep my crazy client in line, and get some school work done.  I was also able to just be present for Wendy when she wanted to snuggle.

Gratitudes

I'm grateful for sitting in the sun with Wendy
I'm grateful for Sean's yummy casserole
I'm grateful for cuddling with Wendy
I'm grateful for a warm bath
I'm grateful for getting stuff done today
I'm grateful for my amazing lessons
I'm grateful for my snuggly bed

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June 21, 2019

Deck:  World Spirit Tarot

First Impressions:  Warmth, fun, sun, happy

Book:  Sun brings us deep, but simple joy, life is good, there is nothing to fear, renewed vitality, love

Guidance:  Open up to receive the sun

Journaling:

I have to just get this out there that I hate this version of the sun.  The kid looks utterly creepy as he has an old man face.  However, I love the sun card because it makes me think of sitting out in the sun and basking.  For me,t he sun is one of the best ways that I learn to receive.  I can just sit outside and let the sun fill me with warmth and that helps me let down my defenses and receive.  I don't do a good job at receiving because I always assume that someone has an ulterior motive, but there is no ulterior motive with the sun and I can just let down my defenses and receive. 

Spending time hanging out on the patio with Cam and the dogs is amazing.  It isn't fancy and it doesn't require any investment, but there is something so peaceful about just being and watching Wendy lift her face to the sun is a magical experience.  I can feel her soaking in all the warmth and joy the sun has to offer.  It makes me so sad that she was deprived before we got her and she didn't have the love and affection that she does now.

In some ways, Wendy is the ultimate at receiving because she is so good at receiving love with no reservations.  She loves me fully and wholeheartedly and it makes me feel so humble to know that I am loved that much.  She loves to give kisses and I've learned to just receive them.  I don't really enjoy her enthusiastic licks, but I love how happy she is to give them to me.

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December 25, 2017

Sun
Dark Goddess Tarot
Deck:  
Dark Goddess Tarot

First Impressions:  Sekhmet always strikes me as so regal in this card, she is clearly a woman of power who knows how to wield it.  Her solar sundress makes me think of all the blood she has lapped up.  Overall, the sun is a card of promise and warmth.

Book:  Power Burns, Power Heals, raw power of the sun, divine vengeance, cleansing fire cures, She ensures the flame of one's life does not burn out too soon

Guidance:  Opportunity to break a negative cycle, walking both the spiritual and mundane paths, following a calling

Journaling

Pretty amazing that I pulled this card right after I was doing a sun meditation to heal my pancreas.  Even though I know the sun is still up there, she feels faraway today.  It is a cold day and the cold wind is howling.  My wood room is drafty and I feel the cold breeze blowing.  Days like today it feels as if the sun is never going to come out and warm us.  I can truly see how the ancients believed the sun had forsaken them. 

They are truly telling me to charge a citrine and put it in water from last year's snow.  I'm supposed t ask that Sekhemet bless the water and I'm supposed to meditate and listen to binaural beats.  They are telling me that will bring my sugar levels down.  At this point, I'm willing to try anything.

January 1, 2018

Okay, I haven't done this yet as I haven't dug through my rocks to find a citrine.  I will do it this week and report back on the results.  Interesting thing is that even though I haven't done it yet, I am feeling better and I have made a definitive decision to stop the sugar and I've started to find alternatives.
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December 1, 2016


Deck:  Gilded Tarot

Card:  Pulled reversed

Keywords / Impressions:  Sadness, feeling of loss or loneliness

Book:  Hiding your light, low self esteem, failure to see the good, expecting everything to revolve around you

Guidance:  Break through the clouds of gloom and despair and step confidently into your own light, love yourself more
Journaling

11/7/17--Oddly enough I did not do any journaling on this card when I originally pulled it.  I'm not sure why because I think the messages are inspiring and things I truly need to listen to even today.  I get so caught up in judging myself and putting myself down that I don't give myself credit for the good things I do.  I need to quit doing that.

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